May 31, 2011

Memorial Day 2011


Please go HERE to read a story by Alex Horton about Memorial Day.

He says it way better than I ever could.

P.S. - I realize that Memorial Day was on May 30th. I was hoping to get this post in under the wire, but these days everything I do is off. Just read the story anyway, please.

May 09, 2011

Man Overboard


Ships adrift at sea
Ghost children, fallen overboard.
Dark, murky waters.

© bigD 2011


Mother's Day is over now.
My daughter is here, but my son is not. I am torn between two worlds. How does one keep living this way? The pain of losing Nick, the longing for my son, the hole in my heart...when does that change?

I believe the answer is never.

"You can only lean on me for so long
Bring your ship about to watch a friend drown
Stood over the ledge
Begged you come down
You can only lean on me for so long

So sorry it's over
So sorry it's over

There's so much more that I wanted and
There's so much more that I needed and
Time keeps moving on and on and on
Soon we'll all be gone

Man on a mission
Can't say I miss him around
Insider information
Hand in your resignation
Loss of a good friend
Best of intentions I found
Tight lipped procrastination
Yeah later
See you around."

(Lyrics Blink 182 "Man Overboard")

May 04, 2011

Lost In My Mind


Grief Calls Us to the Things of This World by Sherman Alexie
The morning air is all awash with angels . . .
Richard Wilbur

The eyes open to a blue telephone
In the bathroom of this five-star hotel.
I wonder whom I should call? A plumber,
Proctologist, urologist, or priest?
Who is most among us and most deserves
The first call? I choose my father because
He's astounded by bathroom telephones.
I dial home. My mother answers. "Hey, Ma,

I say, "Can I talk to Poppa?" She gasps,
And then I remember that my father

Has been dead for nearly a year. "Shit, Mom,"
I say. "I forgot he’s dead. I’m sorry—
How did I forget?" "It’s okay," she says.
"I made him a cup of instant coffee
This morning and left it on the table—
Like I have for, what, twenty-seven years—
And I didn't realize my mistake
Until this afternoon." My mother laughs
At the angels who wait for us to pause
During the most ordinary of days
And sing our praise to forgetfulness
Before they slap our souls with their cold wings.
Those angels burden and unbalance us.
Those fucking angels ride us piggyback.
Those angels, forever falling, snare us
And haul us, prey and praying, into dust.

Poem reprinted with permission from hangingloosepress.com
the poetry publisher for Sherman Alexie