Stricken With A Great Sadness

“The way sadness works is one of the strange riddles of the world. If you are stricken with a great sadness, you may feel as if you have been set aflame, not only because of the enormous pain, but also because your sadness may spread over your life, like smoke from an enormous fire. You might find it difficult to see anything but your own sadness, the way smoke can cover a landscape so that all anyone can see is black. You may find that if someone pours water all over you, you are damp and distracted, but not cured of your sadness, the way a fire department can douse a fire but never recover what has been burnt down.”
~ Lemony Snicket, The Bad Beginning

I love you always and forever my sweet boy. I miss you with every piece of my broken heart.  Please come home.  Mom xo

Sweet Son

Had a dream about you last night.
We were in a candy store.
Buying candy.
I saw your face.
You smiled at me.
That's all I remember.
So horrible that I cannot even capture you in my dreams.
They fade so fast.
They don't seem real.
Sometimes I barely remember.
I dreamed of you.
Then I remember you are gone.
Gone forever.
So now I dream about you in a candy store.
What kind of candy do you want my sweet boy.
I love you more than a wagon full of puppies.
Always and forever you are in my heart.
Please come home soon, so we can go buy some
real candy.