All Alone

Unraveling still.

Even as I clutch at this 

Stark and dismal truth.

© big D 2013

So foolish to think 

I could get out of this...

A cruel fate I must learn to accept.

There is no hope.  

Only darkness and pain.

“I don’t want to be in pain anymore. I want to be done, to be left unburdened and naked, to tear the hurt off my body like layers of clothes. At the end of the trail I stop and bend forward, hands on my knees, to catch my breath. I’m not healed, but for this moment, I’m better.”  

 ~ Kerry Cohen, Loose Girl: A memoir of Promiscuity

I’m looking for a way out
For a place that no one knows
Please take me away now
Somewhere it don’t feel so cold

Troubles on my mind
Troubles on my mind
For the rest of the days I’ve cried
For the rest of the days I’ve cried

I’m searching for a paradise 
That I just can’t seem to find
I’m searching for a paradise 
For the time of my life

I’m searching for a paradise 
That I just can’t seem to find
I’m searching for a paradise 
Gonna go where the spirit guides

All alone

My silhouette is fading
Past the point of safe return
Now my body’s aching
As both ends of the candle burn

My heart is beating slow
My heart is beating slow
It’s worn me to the bone
It’s worn me to the bone

I’m searching for a paradise 
That I just can’t seem to find
I’m searching for a paradise 
For the time of my life

I’m searching for a paradise 
That I just can’t seem to find
I’m searching for a paradise 
Gonna go where the spirit guides

All alone
All alone
All alone

(Song "Paradise"  by City and Colour)